Sedar... Then tak sedar...

Have you noticed?

I don't know if you ever felt this way, but I realized about this thing earlier.

Sometimes your iman is very high, like, really high.

You feel like Allah is very close to you.

That feeling is nice right?

But then, you will stray away from Allah, slowly, bit by bit, little by little...

And some things will only continue to lead you away from Allah.

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Maybe this is only me, but I realize this about myself.

Usually, if I start to listen to Kpop, or Jpop, or anime songs, I will slowly get further away from Allah.

Then if I read or watch mangas and animes, I will slowly feel distant from Allah.

Same goes when I watch MVs or those Korean TV shows.

It doesn't happen abruptly, mind you.

It happens slowly, it happens gradually.

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Some things just can't mix.

Or maybe it's just hard for me to balance between becoming closer to Allah, and to stick with animes/mangas/dramas/music.

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And yes, it's hard.

Especially since I grew up, I freaking grew up with animes, mangas, games.

I have periodic Digimon-craziness every year. I have manga-reading binge. I have anime-watching binge. I have K-dramas-watching binge.

Ujian ujian ujian...

Slowly, slowly, slowly...

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I'm thinking about studying Arabic 2 next semester. That means I might have to drop Ecology.

What do you think?

I really want to seriously study Arabic (albeit only Modern Standard Arabic).